I am Empty Now

Now, I feel so empty on the inside.

I don't know why.

But it is just empty.

No feeling at all.

Maybe too much things been thrown to me.

And my heart just can't take it anymore.

Today's class seems so boring.

Is it because I am not interested in studying it?

I always love this class.

I will always look forward to it.

But, for today I just wish there is no class.

Because if I am to go to class in this condition,

I won't be able to put any of the lessons into my head.

So, I will just let it be for the time being now.

As I have nothing to say now.

Because,

I am empty now.

No Words....

There is no word that can describe my feeling today....

Eventhough I am happy as I am going back to my hometown this Tuesday...

But this could be the worst day ever....

Cause the flashback kept coming back to me..

I thought I had gotten over with it but then it has never budge from that place...

What can I do?

I just wished I could turn the clock back to last year...

I felt so guilty as I had not done my job as a son...

I am really sorry for letting u down...

I am very sorry....

I will repay you in my next life...

As I am not able to do it this life....

I am sorry, Father.

Seeking apologies openly....

Hi....

Today, I have an important job to be done....

This post will be used to seek apologies from the people that I have hurt for the last few days....

I am very sorry for saying these words that have wounded you all....

I am here to say that I am really really sorry for saying such a word....

If there is anything that I can do so that all of you will forgive me, just tell me....

I will try my very best to do it...

So that I can get the forgiveness I am seeking for....

Please....

Just tell me what I can do....

Thanks....

MUET!!!

Today went for MUET test...
But i didnt study anything for it....
Cause dun know wat to study oso....
Plus something terrible happened (which i am not gonna say it)
So, no mood to study lo....
After the test which last for almost 5 hours.....from 8 till 12.45....
We went out to have our lunch....
After walking for hours, we went home lo....
Actually this post nothing wan...
For syok nia...
Hehehehe....

Outing Again!!!

Last week, Calvin and me went to Midvalley to watch movie.

This week, we r doing the same too!!!

Yesterday, Calvin and I just finished our class and then we straight went to Midvalley again....

This time we watched Paul Blart : Mall Cop.

Before we watch the show, we went to Mc D to eat something first.

After eating, we went to watch the show.

The show is very funny and we were all like laughing very very loud....

Hahahaha....

So, after watching the movie, we went for a walk in the Dinosaur World exhibition...(forgot the name d...just simply putting a name for it)

A lot of giant figures can be seen inside....Scary....

Wont be uploading the images cause a bit lazy....Hehehe...

Maybe other day o...

So, after watching the movie, we went to have our dinner....

We went to Sushi King to have our dinner....

Very long liao since the last time I eat sushi...

Went in and I ordered Fry Set....

Very nice and ate some sushi too....

But let me tell u something...

This is the first time I eat till my stomach oso pain d...

Hahaha....

But then it really hurts.....

Hehehe....

After that, we went to Carrefour and bought some stuff....

After that we went home....

We walked till most of the shops oso close d...

Hahahhahaha....

Gomenasai....Hontoni gomene...

I am here to ask for apologies from everyone that I have hurt in any way for the past few days....

I am really sorry for my rude reaction towards u all....

Sumimasen....

Mianhe...

Joehsonghapnida.......

Sorry......

Minta maaf....

Dui Bu Chi.....

Hope to receive apologies.....

Shitsurei shimashita.....

Sorry yea everyone.....

Tense meter rising....

I tot I dun have anymore to worry...

But I was wrong to say it like this....

Cause there are a lot more things for me to worry....

My family in Penang started to have some problems....(not fighting within our family-cause my family have no problem with this)

(I am damn worried bout my mum)

Eventhough here things seems to be fine, there r still things that keeps on going wrong....

I just dun get it....

(1) ENGLISH PRESENTATION-going to suffer for another week b4 my turn....

(2) FLYERS FOR PKC FRESHEE CAMP- have to submit draft next monday and i have lost all my designing skill and ideas(in a flash!!)

(3) QUIZESS- haven studied for all of it....

(4) MUET!!!- dun even have any hints on wat are we going to do that day...

(5) DITCHED BY SOME1 THAT I HAVE LOVED FOR ALMOST A YEAR!!-this ought to be the worst for now.....

My heart is in confusion...Dunno wat to do now....Very very confused.....

Pls.....Anyone? Tell me wat shld I do b4 I break down and cry as I dun like to cry....

Really going to cry just now cause when I heard of the problems from my mother....

And to think my matter is the worst.....(my mum suffer more than me)

Hopefully i dun need to cry.....

T.T

Wish to go back SO MUCH!!!!

Friends are meant to last FOREVER!!!

I just dun understand something....
Why some ppl can just severe ties with their friends that once went out together, talks together, jokes around together and do almost everything together!!!!????
Can't they just try to understand each other??
Just take everything out from ur heart and tell the opposite wat have made u unhappy....
Some ppl would choose to keep everything in their hearts and then without knowing it, they might have misunderstood the other person...
That is why we shld bring everything into open and discuss it....
Then everything will be back to normal....
I would rather befriend someone that will always tell me where i am wrong than those who will just be an ass kisser......
I dun like that kind of person....
Really and seriously......
So, I hope everyone knows wat I am talking.....




P/S: This blog is not directed to anyone. Its just something i tot about after reading others blog....You-know-who-you-are.........

Dunno wat to do.....

HAIZZ............

I prepared for my speech for so many days and stayed up till so late into the nite.....

But wat do i get?

Having my turn next Monday??

How come we can't volunteer for a place??

I am really ready to give my speech but i was told to wait till next monday....

Haizz....

Maybe it's a good news but maybe oso a bad news......

Dunno lo....

Today done my physic quiz...

Heard that maybe this week going to have chemistry quiz....

Some more this saturday got MUET test!!!!

Stress is coming back to me again....

I am still blur on one thing....

How come i have been calling her one whole day....

But she not picking up my phone!!!!

Dunno why...

Things getting stress here....

Next week gotta hand in my chem outline and i haven started anything yet.....

Dunno wat should I do!!!!!!

Stress releasing....

Yesterday, after class, Calvin and me planned to catch a movie.

So, we asked if Tony or Alvin wanna follow us.

They declined so off we go to Midvalley....

Found a parking spot at the rooftop of Gardens (damn high lo)...

Walked to Midvalley...

We went for Fast and Furious 4.

Very very nice lo the movie....

Go and watch it!!!!

Finished watching the movie, we walked around taking pictures....

Went to starbuck too....

Our taiko taking pictures...

BR...wanna eat but no money....

Saw this at Midvalley...

My caramel macchiato...

In front of GSC Signature....

In front of GSC Signature's Gold Class.....

Our taiko nothing to do.....(so snap my pic lo...)

Our taiko's frappucino mocha....

Then we went home to fetch Tony out to eat at SK.

After having our dinner, we went to The Mines.

We went there to play pool.

Taiko and tony playing pool....

Initially, wanted to play for 1hour oni...

But then we played for 2 hours!!!

We met some of our UNITEN friends there too playing pool....

After playing pool, we went to catch a midnight movie...

This time we watch Shinjuku Incident....

But movie not yet start...

Then we saw an advertisement saying a new karaoke just opened...

Ok la...

We go and try it...

It's name is Just K.

Just K karaoke.....

Price is RM 18 per hour.

We sang a few songs.

Our taiko singing so good...

Taiko and Tony singing....

Never know it but then Tony no voice to sing lo...

Hahaha....

Then finished singing k...

We go watch our movie...

The movie kinda scary though....

But then the movie is not that nice cause a lot of scene is cut....

Still ok la in overall....

So, finished watching we went home...

The Mines-so empty during nite time....(creepy...)

But we couldnt find a way out of that place to the car park....

Then finally found....

Gone home and slept....
Nice outing!!!

All stress are released during this outing....

Study mode switching.....

Today, went to class....
Very semangat wanna study d....
Then, our lecturer gave back our physics test paper...
OMG!!!!
I actually passed my physic test 1!!!
Unbelievable.....
Hahhaa.....
But result a bit teruk la....
Then, we start studying new chapter today...
Whew.... So much new formulae to be memorized....
Still finding ways to memorize it....
Next monday got physic quiz o...
Then, just now went for calculus class...
Tutorial....
Then he gave us our retest mark....
Never expect it to be this high....
Hehehe.....
Then, started to do tutorial questions....
Class from 11 - 1pm wan...
But he finished one chapter wan tutor in 30 minutes....
Then he say "We continue next week"...
We were all like "WTH...So fast finished d??"
We really like to enter his class....
He is such a happy man with all his jokes and laughter...
Learning gets easier.....
Hahhaha...
Now at home....
Just now forget to bring ID...
Kena tahan by two gurads...
Hahahha...
GTG now...
Still got class and have to meet calvin at BF to pass up our lab report.
BYE!!!

..........

Yesterday, I have been quite speechless for the whole day....
Cause morning i got gastric....
And then just now chemistry, my lecturer start a new topic without telling us anything...
So, din bring the notes oso.....
Then, after that, I just oni remembered i din bring my lab coat....
So, after chemistry class finished at 3pm, i drove back to get my lab coat...
My english class start at 3pm...
Hahahha....
Late lo....
Then enter english class....
My lecturer says that the outline pass up next week...
I SPENT ONE WHOLE NITE DOING IT AND NOW SHE SAY PASS UP NEXT WEEK????
dunno if i am the one to be blamed for getting the wrong info or wat la....
-speechless-
then finish the english class....
i am late for chem lab!!!!!
we( calvin and i) ran to my car and drove there....
but still late...
finished up the lab and then mr lim says pass up in two hours....
we were like '????????'
then he says never mind...
pass up 2moro lo...
but from 1 to 1.30 nia.....
ok la....
then just now went for badminton and i miss my meeting....
hahahhaha.....
then now kinda tired cause i very long liao din do exercise....
hahahaha......
then go eat at upten and then come back home to do my work.....
now very sien liao....
wanna sleep liao.....
gudnite.....zzzzzzzzzzz........

Gastric!!!!

This morning woke up having a gastric....
Man....
I hate it....
But i dun understand why i have it now cause i ate accordingly....
But i still get this....
Arghhhh.....
''Hen Nan Sou'' !!!!
Can't anyone come and help me?
At home, my mum will prepare medicine for me lo...
Here?
No one!!!
Help me....
How come I have this disease.....
Dun know why....
"I wan my mum to be by my side now!!!!" T.T
Now i know the feeling without ur parents by your side....
No one will be able to help me now....
Later some more got class....
How le?
How I hope I can go back now!!!
Miss my family back in penang....
*sob sob*

Wet (and Tiring) Day...

Ok just now evening went to meet alvin and his geng....
Cause class cancelled....
I spend my one hour time at COIT doing nothing....
Blogging lo...
Hhahaa...
Then went for my class...
After class, class again till 4pm...
Then when i come out of the building, it's raining damn heavily....
Calvin, his friend and I decided to wait at the Civil Engineer lab....
Since it's raining so heavy with thunder striking here and there...
So scared lo...
Scared the thunder strike us...
hahah.....
Then when the rain gets a bit smaller, we ran to my car...
Omg...
My car is wet all over the place...
Hehehe.....
Then, brought calvin's friend to murni to drop her there...
Then we went home...
When we reached home, we realised that we didnt close our apartment window....
So, calvin's note all wet and my printer too.....
Clean up the mess and prepare to study(for calculus retest)...
But din study oso....
Haha...
Went out to have our dinner at SK...
(We waited for so long for our food.....)
Until 8pm oni come back....
We some more not yet change our shirt yet....
So, came back home and changed our shirt....
Reached there round 8.15pm....
Still early...
Then we went in and started our battle against the question and time....
However, I managed to 'kill' some of the question nia....
Not all....
Last question dunno how to do....T.T
After the test, i need to send another friend of calvin's to ilmu....
Wanted to follow joanne's geng (except for shu hui - kesian her la.....) out wan....
Tak sempat....
They pula din call us out wan...
They ditched us lo....
Sad.....
But then we decided to go there to meet them....
At cyberjaya....
Hahaha......
So, we started our journey there and we got LOST!!!
Haizz...
My tai ko (our new GPS) helped us to contact Linda and we found our way back...
That time already 11.30pm lo...
Hahhaa.....
So went home round 12.30 like that...(forgot to see the time)...
So, we reached UNITEN around 2 am....
Cause on our way back, we got lost again.....
Thx to our navigator, Joanne....
So, another navigator, Linda came and lead us back to UNITEN...
Thank u!!!!
Hahaha....
Now wanna sleep d wan...
But then got 2 ppl ask me to update my blog...
So have to write at least something la...
Hahaha...
Gudnite....zzzz....

Sweat la....

This morning, I never plan to wake up so early wan....
I planned to wake up at 9 or 9.30...
Cause my class at 11am....
But then, i forgot to switched off my alarm so i woke up at 8.30.
Haizz....
Wake up and saw calvin, alvin and tony preparing to go to class d....
Then, i asked them to pass something to shu hui later...
They say ''ok''....
Then i walked here and there 'tak tentu arah' cause not really woken up yet...
Go see the time..
OMG!!!
8.45!!!
So, i went to bath, asked alvin to pass the items to shu hui and i bring the two guys to class( coz tony left earlier)....
and i went back home again....
to take my student id...
hahahaha.....(that's my reason why i come back)
hehehe......
so, 2nite we r going to have our calculus retest rite?
Then, let's do it together!!!
We will be able to do it!!!!
Get full marks!!! (you all nia...not me..)
Hahahaha.....

PC Fair!!! (again)

Yesterday nite, we couldn't fixed that switch...

So, we decided to bring it to one of alvin's friend staying in ilmu to try it out....

The result??

FAILED!!!

It's spoiled...

Fine...

Now, we have to go to KLCC again!!!!

Hate to go into the crowd.....

Wat to do...

Ok la...

We (me and alvin nia) prepared to go to pc fair...

As Tony has to wait for his bro...

And that Calvin is still enjoying his time in Genting....

Then, I saw shu hui on9 thru msn...

Just for fun, I asked her if she wanted to follow us to PC Fair or not...

To my astonishment, she says she can follow us....

Ok lo...

But i and alvin have to rush to murni (as u know, i dun like girls to wait for me)

We fetch shu hui at murni and set out to PC Fair....

once there, we found a parking spot and went to PC Fair straight...

Even though we r quite early, there are already damn lot of ppl there already...

Firstly, we went into the PC Guru and each of us won a free gift from there....

Then we went for another section titled 'ru sony?'

went in and hear all the talks and got ourselves another free gift...

After that, we straight went to the place where everything is sold....

Started by finding for the notebook cooler that shu hui wanted to find....

Found nothing and too expensive so she say dun wan buy d....(for her friend wan)

So, move on to find a webcam for shu hui oso...

But too expensive d....

Din buy oso....

Finally, went to the D-Link place to ask for a change for the switch bought yesterday....

That person in charge said we have to go to low yat to change...

Furious....

So, continue walking....

met some of my coursemates from UNITEN....

Then, me and alvin hungry d....

Cause from morning till now( 2pm) oso not yet eat....

Shu hui ate b4 she came back to uniten this morning....

Haizz....

Then, we get out of the PC Fair and found out that it's raining already...
So, we have to use the underground passage to go to KLCC.....

We plan to go to Mc D to eat wan.....

But look at this......

So many ppl...wanna eat their Mc Value Lunch oso cannot.....T.T

So, we went to other shops and their condition are the same...

Thus, we tot of going outside to eat as we damn hungry d....

Paid for the parking ticket (RM6.50) and drove out...

OMG!!!!

Traffic jam!!!!!

We jam in front of KLCC for almost 30 minutes lo....

Imagine it....

Once i pass the traffic jam, i stopped at a nearby Mc D.

Just outside of KLCC at Ampang Walk...

But to find a parking in it was like freaking difficult....

Have to wait for other car to come out only got place to park.....

So, we ate our late lunch and went to low yat...

Parked my car in berjaya times square.....

Then walk to low yat....

We managed to change it and when we come out...

It's raining....

And shu hui told us that we need to go to kl sentral to get sue rin's train ticket...

Ok la....

We walk in the rain towards the monorail station....

So, we took the monorail from Imbi to KL Sentral....

When we get out of the monorail, we saw that there is no shade for us to cross the street...

So, we ended up running in the rain again...

Haha....

So, we bought the ticket and went back to times square and we have to pass that same spot again....

Wet again....

(hope won't get sick)

So, we went back to UNITEN...

B4 that, we went to SK to tapau our dinner....

mixed rice and fried rice(for tai ko)...

So, this ends the day...

P/S : Thank you, shu hui for spending your time with us and sorry for getting you wet in the rain. And oso for making u so tired out in this outing le...

(You seems pretty tired just now. So rest more.....K???)

Here are some pics from PC Fair and KLCC...

so many ppl lo....

nice car....(not my dream car)

Ok, that's all for 2day....

Damn tired and tomoro nite still got calculus retest....

Haizz..... sien lo....

Now have to go check if the switch can function or not...

If not, gonna kill that guy d.....

Robbed of Love...

Love,

Is something that everyone could have,

Is something that everyone wish for,

No matter from where that person came from,

No matter from which background,

Love is always the treasure sought by everyone,

Love is always the bull's eye of a target to be shot at,

Cause love brings out the most beautiful things on the earth,

Cause love brings everything you need from everywhere.

But how come I don't get the chance to enjoy it,

As now, the love that I once found,

The love that I once cherished the most,

Have been robbed by somebody,

Maybe that's how life is,

Being robbed by somebody of the thing you treasures the most,

And left to bleed from the wound caused from the robbery,

While thinking what could you have done to prevent this from happening,

But it's all too late,

It's all too late,

You can only look while your treasured love was carried away from you,

Further and further by each step,

Further and further by each day,

Until it finally disappeared from your view.

So, now I am still sitting there,

Watching everyone with their own love,

I am so broken-hearted,

As my love told me these lines of words,

''Nothing last forever in this world,

So, the bridge between us will be broken too one day,

Why not I break it now?''

It was said so coldly,

Much more colder than in the North Pole,

I froze for a while,

And then I congrats her,

For being able to find someone better than me.

Maybe that person may suits her more,

May protect her more,

May give her more love,

Than I could ever give.

So, here I am standing alone in the lonely path of love,

Will be searching for my next love,

But it's gonna take some time,

Before I could use all my heart to cherish another love.

I was played by before,

And I will keep my fingers crossed,

So that I won't be played around again,

The next time I found my love.

Now I am healing my wound from the robbery,

The wound is so deep,

That it will leave a deep scar,

No matter how long the time pass by,

As my love to her is as true as pure gold,

But she take it like the fake gold,

And played with it everywhere,

Throwing here and there,

And finally into the dustbin.

So, here I am,

Standing on my own pool of blood,

Which flowed out of the wound of my heart,

I am still searching for my TRUE love....

Updates for the 'The Outing 2'

the food our tai ko ordered... nice rite??

the three girls that follow us out......(pretty ho?)

the three boys and the three girls....(nice match rite?)

tai ko with jouee, alvin with joanne and tony with shu hui.....

hahahahaha......

tony and our tai ko...so cute la our tai ko....

nothing to do... so do some pose lo...

the guys oso pose......but where is tony looking to??

all of them in the dark wan... but the camera flash can light up the whole place!!!!

So, that's basically wat we did on the second outing......

Will update other pictures soon.....

PC Fair!!!

Finally !!!!!!!
Finished the chem test....
Yeah...
But kesian calvin la....
He had a stomachache while doing the test....
Luckily it does not affect him during the test...
Hahaha.....
By the way, that is so yesterday....
Today we went to PC Fair 2009!!!
Yeah....
I am always very anxious to go to the PC Fair...
Really...
Dun know why oso....
Hahaha....
So, I was woken up by someone that rarely woke up early....
ALVIN!!!
I was having my sweet dream when he wake me up and say 'It's time to go to PC Fair....
OMG...
It's already 9am!!
I promised to them that we will be going out at 8am...
(as Alvin wanted to see 'someone' there.....)
So, we went out around 10am (if i am not wrong)...
Then i drove to Wangsa Maju to eat our breakfast...
Calvin's hp suddenly 'broke down' and while Tony tried to fix it, he drop the battery into the 'chee cheong fan' wan sauce...
We were all laughing away....
Then i sent Calvin to repair his hp at a nearby hp shop...
But we spent about 15-20 minutes there....

Then, since i needed to see my aunt at her office to get some cash to buy HER stuff.....
So, i went to Capsquare....
Then we went to KLCC...
We reached there around 12.30pm....
Alvin's someone is already leaving at that time.....
He looks so dissappointed....
I am sorry Alvin for causing you to be late....
I am very sorry....
Then we went into PC Fair and we walked for soooooooooo.......
LONG!!!!
4 hours and 45 minutes!!!!
Imagine it....

And the parking fees is RM9.00!!!

OMG...
Hahaha....
We also bought a lot of things there.....
We bought keyboard (for gaming purpose), notebook cooler (cause spoil d), switch (for our cendi usage),a harddisc(my aunt's wan) and my printer ink.....

things we bought at pc fair...

So, at around 5pm, Calvin bidded goodbye with us as he is going to Genting.(how could you leave us like that?)

This leaves us three alone, so i went to Wangsa Maju again to have our dinner...
Actually wanna meet my aunt but she went to a dinner d....
So, will meet her next time....

Then, we went home and now we are still figuring how to make the switch function!!!!
Haizzz....
It's already 10pm and we still cant find the way to operate it...
Hahaha....
(Need to help them out in figuring the way to operate the switch)

Then, just now we found that the dinosaur that alvin got during his outing to Petrosains enlarged like a PIG!!!

dun u think it's kinda fat???

Hahahahah....

So, will be helping the boys out.....
Bye....

The Outing 2

Yeah...

Finally went out again because the girls' 'driver' is going to return the car to her parents....

So sad...

Cause cannot go out already till the girl got back her car....

By the way, I and calvin planned the outing since the night b4 it....

Hahaha....

So the next day, we went out in the evening to Seri Kembangan to search for the place so that we won't 'hilang' while searching for it during nite time....

We found it and we went back to continue studying....

At nite, all of us prepared quite early so that the girls wont be waiting for us....

U all know la how embarassed to let the girls wait for us....

Howeva, around 7pm, one of the girls decided not to go and the other girls too (cause wanna prepare for test the next day)....

All the boys were like ''Oh my god, we prepared so early and now cancelled?''

So, we asked the other girls to persuade that PARTICULAR girl so that she will go with us....

Then we boys set out to their apartment and waited for them...

We waited and waited and waited...

Finally their car came out....

We tot it's a success....

But when we reached the eating place....

We din see that PARTICULAR girl there!!!!

I was feeling so ashamed as i have caused that PARTICULAR girl to wait at home alone.....

Man, i dun know how can i express that feeling.....

By the way, calvin ordered the food like pros and the food there is so delicious....

Thx calvin!!!!

(love you so much!!)

So, after finished eating, we took some photos and chit chat-ed a little....

The ppl there eating were all looking at us as we were snapping photos here and there with flashes...

Hahhaah.....

However, the rather sad news is that I CAN'T UPLOAD THE PICTURES!!!!

Sad la.....

The internet connection is just too slow.....

So, I am sorry that I cant show those pictures to you all.....

Maybe next time i will post it up.....

See ya....

The Outing

Finally, I am back to blogging(which is due to a few girls that constantly remind me to update my blog). Haizz....
Now you see why i am updating my blog...
Hehe...
Let me see wat i shld blog bout 2day...
Ok la..
Let's talk bout wat happened last Sunday.
Me and my friends just finished our calculus test and alvin suggested we go out to play (we always do that).
Then, he asked me to follow joanne's car to balakong jusco.
I was scared initially cause i am bringing one of my friend who plan to go to sepang around noon.
But he said he wanted to so i have no choice.
The other friend of mine was like 'Ok then. Let's go eat then go back d'
Then, I stepped on the accelerator to keep up with the car in front as i was quite left behind d.
Then i met them somewhere in front of The Mines.
In order to 'play' with them, I followed them closely from behind.
But to tell you all something...
this is the first time I saw a girl driving so dangerously other than my mum....
Hehehehe....
Anyway, reached balakong jusco.
Went and eat at the foodcourt.
Then my the other friend going to sepang wan left...
then we followed the girls to KFC.
We sat like we dun know each other nia....
So funny....
Then we spent the rest of the day following the girls...
Man, isn't it tiring....
Bought some stuff and went home....
(Again following them)
Hahaha.....


Then at nite, we went to eat at south city plaza.
Had dinner and took some photos... Will update it next time...
And after dinner, went to Putrajaya(my first time)....
We are like runaway ppl nia....
Keep on running away from police and guards...
Hehehe....
But a nice day though being scolded for a few days as we caused one of the girls to fall sick....
I am very sorry, you-know-who-you-are girl...
I am very very happy on that day....
It's been quite long since i played so happily....
Reached home at 3 am only....
Hahahaha.....
Very very over lo......
Anyway, thx girls for giving us this chance to go out with you all....