I'm Sorry... For all the mean things I might have said. I'm Sorry... For all the things I did or didn't do. I'm Sorry... If I ever ignored you. I'm Sorry... If I ever made you feel bad or put you down. I'm Sorry... If I ever thought I was bigger or better than you. I Luv You... I'll always be here for you. I am Sorry... For everything wrong I've ever done. I'm writing this because what if tomorrow never comes? What if you never get to say good-bye or give a BIG hug to the people you care about? What if you never get to say I'm sorry or I love you? * Because what if tomorrow never comes? I LUV YOU! I luv you! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! Did you know ! that?

Back!!

It's been way too long since the last time I updated my blog.

I am so sorry but I have been very very busy for the last few weeks.

Suddenly so many things to do.

Really busy till very busy lo...

Haha...

Now also want go out liao.

Got class later.

Will update soon....

(A lot of pictures to be uploaded!!!)

^^

I HATE MONDAY!!!

I HATE MONDAY!!!
COZ GOT PHY LAB..
MY PARTNER IS INTERNATIONAL STUDENT LO.....
NOT 1 NIA IS 2 LO...
REALLY DIFFICULT COMMUNICATE WITH THEM..
THEY ALSO LAZY..
WAT ALSO I DO...
I EDI DO 2 WRONG CHOICE IN TIS SEM...
HAIZ....
NOW CANT DO ANYTHING LE..
HAVE TO TAHAN LO...
HOPE TIS THREE MONTH PASS QUICKLY...
I HATE HATE HATE MONDAY!!!

Sorry yea!!

Hey,

This post is pointing to those that I have annoyed in any manner today.

I am really sorry.

Somehow, my mood today's not that good.

Easily got mad.

Hehe...

Now ok le...

Nothing to be mad of anyway.

Thanks yea dear.

For lending your ear,

Even when it's so late ady just now.

You still listen to my grudges.

Thanks a lot and love you.

Sorry to all my friends that i accidentally hurt your feeling...

^^

Friends.....(haizz...)

Actually, this post is just like the post from before (forgotten the post title).

I just wanted to say it again cause this few days,

This kind of stuff kept bugging me.

Making me feel really down.

I have a few questions to ask and I hope somebody (I mean anybody) that have this experience to give me the answers to these questions that have remained unanswered for long.

(1) Do you treat your friends differently whenever you get into a relationship? Is it applicable to everyone??

(2) Do you treat your friend in the way you wanted to be treated back? Does it work?

(3) Why does everyone just take your treat as something that they are actually gifted with?

(4) Is it destined that you will never find someone that is as true as yourself?

(5) Why there is always someone that will hurt others by humiliating that person? Don't that person feel the same whenever someone did that back to him/her?

So, is there anyone out there that could settle my problem?

Anyone?

Please....

道歉。。

今天，
第一次弄别人掉眼泪，
那个人就是我心爱的人，
有点吓到。。
在此要跟你说对不起。。
其实也不能全怪你的啦。。
我也有点错的
相信我吧，
下次不会这样了的。。
我爱你^^

regret...

Yesterday do add n drop..
at first my calculus lecturer is zarina de..
But heard senior say she racist,
so i drop le..
Today heard my course mate said tat she teach very good...
A bit regret lo...
Now cannot change le...
Now taking ahmad kamal also not bad de la..
only a bit boring n he speaking no tone de
make ppl sleepy nia..
But i biasa le coz taught by him while 1st sem..
Hehe...^^

掉了眼泪。。。

我今天第一次为你掉了眼泪。。。

我也不知道为了什么。。。

应该是在想如果有一天，

真的发生了那一件事，

我会怎么样去面对呢？

一想到，

眼泪就流出来了。

根本就不能停。

对不起。。。

是。。。

这次的的确确是我的错。

亲爱的，

请你愿谅我吧。。。

^^

Sorry fren..

Now, I am suppose to be outside with my frens (in the living room)

But here I am, in my own room, shutting myself.

How come I felt like that suddenly?

I don't know.

So, pls don't ask me.

Haizz...

Sorry yea frens....

>.<

Down...

Today marks my last paper for finals.

I did it almost perfect.

Came out early.

With all those eyes looking at me...

Weird...

Then today, my dear is back.

Went to give back her stuff.

Met her family and went to her apartment.

Quite windy lo her apartment.

But heard that she have to move cause apartment not enough ppl.

Hopefully will get back a nice apartment oso.

Today, final is done, she is back,

But somehow my feeling is down.

I planned a party a my apartment,

But then I suddenly just dont have the mood to play.

I just dont understand it.

Why??

Haiz...

Just dun understand it...

Dear,

I just wanna tell you something.

I really miss you.

But I understand that I couldnt be so selfish.

You have ur own choices on what u shld do.

However, I will still respect ur decision.

No matter how it is.

^^

Smile always yea dear!!

-Kaizen-

JIE JIE !!

Today, I would like to officially announced something.
Hopefully no one will object to it.
Miahahaha....

I, Ng Yu Xiang, officially announced that

JOANNE ONG MEI YAN

IS NOW MY BIG SISTER!!!

Which is oso equivalent to my jie jie...

I am so proud to have a sister as her...

Haha...

That's all for today...

^^

Study...

Finals is coming...
It's just around the corner.
That's why today I decided to really focus on my study.
Therefore, I went to library with Alvin and Bryant.
But then the library was closed.
Thus, finding no other place to study, we went to Starbucks in The Mines to study.
We study for a few hours.
Then we went to the Splash Park.
We saw 林峰 there!!
So happy...
Eventhough we are not his fans
But to see him in person is really an unforgettable experience.
So happy today...
Really happy...
Dont know why oso.
Final is here but we are still enjoying our days here in Mines.
Haha...
Maybe my heart needs a bit of relaxation from the stress
And oso the feeling of missing you...
Need to find something to do so as not to think of it too much.
But then the feeling still remain the same.
Cant change the fact that I am really missing you
Since the day we parted at the bus station.
I am still longing to see you, dear.
Hope to see you soon...
Miss you...
^^

-Kaizen-

Boring...

Tis holiday very boring....
At home always nothing to do...
No people accompany out also...
coz all my friends back campus le
Really very boring...
Got anythings to do???
Any suggestion??

Secrets...

From the outside, one seems to have no trouble at all.

But then, most of the time,

The happiest person is actually having the most sorrow.

This few days, I have been listening to a few friends of mine

Expressing their feelings and telling their experiences.

Only then I know everyone have their own lonely world.

But then I can't do much to help them out.

I felt sorry for that.

I am really sorry for not being able to help you ppl.

The only things I could do is to lend you all my ears, my shoulders and another person to share ur stories.

Hopefully you all will feel much better after that.

And I would like to thank those that listened to my feelings.

Really appreciate it very much!!

Thank you!!

Anyway, since it's been more than a week

Ever since I last met you.

I have really felt the feeling

Without you being at my side.

The feeling is LONELY...

I miss you badly, dear.

Really wish to meet you soon.

Love you...

^^

-Kaizen-

假期。。。

假日的到来，
本来想可以和旧同学聚集的，
但是他们全部都回校了。。。
至于中六的呢？
他们要考试了，
都没时间出来。
中六的确很难读咯。。。
还好我没读哈哈。。。。
这假期很闷啊，
整天没事做。。。
还好有电脑的陪伴。。。。
上网，
有时候也会闲的。。
这时我就会想起一个人
我们好久没见面了。。
好想念你哦。。。
希望可以快点见到你
我爱你。。。^^

Missing You...

At this critical time,

I am supposed to be putting my nose into the books.

But what am I doing in this blog??

Haiz...

Just dont understand it.

I am here because I wanted to express my feeling.

She is back in her hometown.

Enjoying her post-exam rest.

While I am far away from her in KL.

Studying for my finals.

I have not been able to study properly

Ever since she went back there.

But I have made a promise with her.

So I gotta work hard to make it reality...

That's all for today.

I really miss you, dear!!

^^

-Kaizen-

Busy...

I am now at my table.

Looking at my laptop.

Thinking what should I do now.

Then suddenly, my mind started to think bout you.

Yes..

It's you, my dear.

I know you will busy this week.

Because finals is coming.

But you still accompany me out for lunch and dinner.

Really appreciate it very much.

And I am really happy that I have you as my dear.

Thanks for your company that I wont feel lonely.

And for your finals...

All the best!!

Love you...

-Kaizen-

To Go Back or Not To Go...

I have been bothered by a problem recently...

One of my relative passed away recently

So, my mum asked me to go back to Penang.

It's ok.

But then problems start to come.

Tickets sold out.

Then suddenly I found out bout my pre-registration is on this Sat!!

So, I called my mum and told her that I wont be able to go back.

She seems sad but I promised that I will be back next week.

So, next week I will be back in Penang.

And I will be missing my dear.

We won't be able to meet each other for so long.

Dont know what I could do.

Just can continue to think bout her only.

That's all I could do.

I hope it wont affect me in any way possible.

Hehe...

Love you!!

-Kaizen-

Friends Forever!!

This is what friends are for...

Helping you whenever you need help.

Will accompany whenever you have feelings to spill out.

Won't feel that you are a burden to him.

And will always try his best to help you.

Friends like this

I only have a few

I could count it out using one side of my fingers.

Others??

I dunno...

Maybe they treat me good but I dont realise it.

But some...

I have no words to say.

So friends...

Please treat your other friends like how you wanted to be treated.

Friends FOREVER!!

LISTEN TO ME!!

When I said something, I mean IT!!

Don't try to avoid it.

It will never work for me.

Why do you always like to go against me??

Why??

Give me you reason!!

I just don't understand it.

Is it that my words does not worth anything??

That's why you don't have to listen to me??

I take you as my friend

But what did you do to me??

Is it that I deserve to be treat like this?

From secondary, I have been treated like this...

I really dont understand it.

Why??

Is it fate that I am treated this way??

I know it is worthless to spill my feeling here.

I must meet with you and tell everything in front of you.

But...

If I do this, will both of us still be friends??

I just wanna correct your attitude

But then what you did to me??

Ok...

That's all I wanna say.

No other words can say my feeling now.

No point continue to elaborate.

This is how you treat me.

But I will still treat you as my friend.

Saturday Outing!!

Last Saturday is a day that I will not forget easily.

It's the first time I have ever celebrated Mooncake Festival with my friends.

I really enjoyed it very much.

But I kinda felt sorry to one of my friends.

He followed us for this outing but his partner din come along.

Only bryant and my partner came with us.

Some more we went out for almost one whole day.

I wanna thank all of you so much for making my Mooncake Festival so meaningful this year.

Especially my dear.

Thank you so much.

Really love you.

Eventhough we din manage to see the moon that night but I still enjoy it as much.

Thank you all so much yea!!

I really appreciate it!!

GF and BF

A GF/BF,

Should be someone,

Who will always be there,

To take time to listen,

To help out and care.

A GF/BF,

Should be someone,

Who makes you feel good,

Who is able to cheer you,

When no one else could.

A GF/BF,

Should be warm,

Understanding and true,

Someone you trust,

Who will let you be YOU.

A friend

A friend,

Is someone who chooses

To understand you,

Care for you,

Help you without reason.

A friend,

Is someone who is by your side,

In each and every reason.

A friend,

Is someone who can be trusted,

Without doubt tell him a secret,

And it will never come out.

Loving You....

I have been struck by a love arrow

Don't even know where does it comes from

Cause now I am in love with you

I have forgotten since when

Maybe from the first moment I saw you

I have said to myself

I must protect you

No matter what happen

So, pls believe me

Since now you have accepted me

I will do all I can to protect you and care for you

So that you will not be alone in this world

I will always stand beside you

So that you can feel my presence

And will not be scared of anything that comes

Cause I will love you

With all my heart

And till the end of the time

I LOVE YOU....

Trip back to Penang...

On 17/09/09,

I drove back to penang with Li Jun, Alvin and Bryant.

I stopped at Ipoh to drop off Li Jun.

I am quite tired.

So i stopped at Alvin's house for one night.

But then the next morning i woke up, i fell sick.

Haiz...

Since i cannot drive le, i asked my uncle to bring me back.

Went back penang, straight high fever.

Cant bring bryant and alvin go jalan-jalan.

So sorry....

Then sick for almost a week.

Recovered le, straight back to uni.

So my holiday isnt any holiday at all.

Din do any of my homework and assignment.

Now have to do everything le...

Haiz....

Back to my work.

Just something brief on what happened.

Pressure at the PEAK!!

I just can't stand it anymore...

Assignments, projects, tests, quizzes, friends problems, and a lot of problems....

They are coming to me at one time!!

I have just fell sick...

Can u give me one moment to rest??

Just this one moment...

I need to get those stuff out of my head!!

Or it's gonna explode anytime!!

Please...

Give me some space to breath!!

I need clean air desperately!!

Kaizen, breathe..

Breathe in, breathe out...

Breathe in, breathe out....

Then everythings gonna be fine....

Friends??

Let me ask all of you a question.

Whenever any of your friends have a bf/gf,

does he/she ignore you completely?

I have always heard that ppl saying

Whenever you have found the other half of yours,

You tend to neglect all your previous friends...

Does that happens?

I totally deny that!!

Cause to me,

If there is no friends,

There wont be bf/gf.

Cause behind every bf/gf,

There's a friend.

Let me state it out again,

Loud and Clear,

BEHIND EVERY BF/GF,

THERE'S A FRIEND!!

I dared to state this out

Because I had a girlfriend before,

But then, even when I had her,

I never neglect my other friends or her friends.

Whoever telling me that I will neglect my friend or her friend,

I will tell you one thing for sure.

I WILL NEVER DO IT!!

So, just get lost whoever that says so.

BUT,

There's a But,

From what I have seen,

It's kinda true that whenever someone found the other half of them,

They tend to neglect the one that have accompany them,

When they havent found their other half.

It's kinda sad that some would do this to their friends.

Some of my friends did this to me.

And I am really sad.

That is why I will never do this.

I am posting this post not because of anything.

It's just that I had heard too much bout this.

I am sorry to those that I have accidentally hurt.

This post is not directed to anyone.

Thanks a lot......

Are friends like that?

Talkie!!

Finally I got my hands on my personal walkie talkie!!

So happy!!

Have been waiting to get it soooo long!!

Finally got it oso...

Thanks to my friend, Darren!!

Thanks for getting it together!!

Can play along ady!!

But I wished I could get another,

So that she could use one too.

Then we could just chat to each other,

Anytime, Anywhere!!

So nice!!

Will keep my money from now on....

想你

我真的很想你，

不知道为什么,

我就是那么想你。

我真的很想跟你说，

我喜欢你。

可是每一次，

都有另一个人，

在你身边。

让我无法说出，

我的心里的话。

我真的很想跟你，

度过在UNITEN里的生活。

我不想一个人孤零零，

的过这些日子。

我一值在找一个，

可以跟我一起走，

这些日子。

现在我找到了你，

我很希望你会接受我。

我想跟你说，

我喜欢你。。。

Confession...

I would like to do confession

But I am scared to do it

Cause I am afraid that you will not like it

I have tried giving clues to you

Just that I dunno if you can read it

I really hope that you will understand my feeling

I will be doing my confession

Just that I dunno if I will be too late

I hope that I wont be too late

I really really hope...

Promise...

Today is the first time that I broke my promise...

And this promise is the promise that I have made with someone special to me...

I broke it...

Am I useless?

I believe that I am really useless...

Just can't believe it I broke it...

How could I do this to my someone?

I never know...

I have to admit that...

I am really really sorry for making you wait for me...

Really sorry...

Please forgive me....

How I wish I can be at her side everyday...

Helping her everyday...

So that she wont be burdened by any load...

How I wish I could be at her side...

To share her joy and sadness...

How I wish to be at her side...

To protect her from any dangers...

How I wish I would be at her side...

To show that there is always a person that care for her...

It doesnt matter if she dont know about me...

But I will always be around her...

Being invisible so that she will not know that I am helping her...

So that she wont face any trouble studying here...

And I will always be there whenever she needs someone...

Love

My Love,

Higher than the sky above,

Deeper than the sea,

Stronger than the winter winds,

Blowing through the trees,

Richer than the honey's taste,

Sweeter than the daw,

Greater than the reach of time,

This is My Love to YOU.

Troubled...

I have been troubled for so many days...

On what should I do to this problem.

I am currently sandwiched between two choices.

Which is to let go or to chase after her.

I really dunno what to do.

What if I confess to her but then she don't want to accept?

Will we still be friends?

Will we still be like now?

I really don't know what should I do...

Pls...

Someone pls teach me!!

Miss Her...

Holiday is coming...

This week actually planning to go out with her wan.

But then since next Monday is a holiday, she will be going home.

I am gonna miss her so much.

Hopefully I will be able to see her before she go back.

I have already given my heart to her.

Hopefully she will understand it.

I just don't know how to pull myself out of this now.

I just hope that I can continue to be turned around in this whirlpool of love.

Till forever and ever.

Please do not attempt to pull me out of it.

Thanks.....

My hope

My hope

Is to be with you

Is to be by ur side whenever u need me

No matter where u are

No matter when is it

I will always be by ur side to assist you

And I also hope that

You have the same feeling to me

I really hope that u r reading this post

As I really wan you to be my dear

Now I am posting this post

So that you know that

I am waiting for you.

爱情。。。

Why am I thinking so much of her?

Even though both of us never talked much.

But then from the first time I saw her,

I know that my heart have stopped for a while.

But I never take it seriously.

Now, I finally realised that I have falled for her.

Why did I ever fall for her?

I shouldn't have done that.

I think she likes someone else.

But then I don't dare to confirmed that.

I am scared to face it.

I also know something from my friend.

He says that a girl likes a friend of mine.

But then I really wished what does she thinks of me.

What am I in her point of view.

Haiz....

But then, what if I know that she thinks of me as her friend only?

And what if I know she likes me?

What should I do?

This time really 'gai' liao...

I really dunno what to do.

I will let God determine it for me.

Another Outing...

Friday, 21st August 2009

Today, Bryant and me had earlier planned an outing with another group of foundies.

But then, in the last minute, another guy came too.

So, just go on with the plan.

Bryant also invited another two ppl.

So, the group is getting bigger...=.="

Never mind then...

So, we went to Jusco Cheras Selatan and sing k for around 3hours.

It seems that the foundies doesnt really enjoyed the karaoke part.

So sorry yea.

Then, after singing k, we went to The Mines.

Helped Uncle Tien to search for his formal clothes.

I, myself oso bought one.

Hehe...

Then went to play bowling.

This time, can see that they really enjoyed themselves.

I am so happy to see them enjoying it.

(eventhough they dun scored much) >.<

After playing for one round, they wanted another round.

So, we just played another round.

After finish playing,we went makan.

At Boh Long kopitiam.

Then we went back home.

Reached UNITEN, I dropped the girls and then dropped Bryant.

After that, I went straight to library to take my test.

METB113 test o...

Din study for one whole day, and now taking test...

Hahaha....

Luckily studied before ady, so kinda prepared liao.

Finished test, went out to Gasoline with Allan, Alvin, Tony and Bryant.

Talked and drink till around 12am.

After that went to KL to look around.

Actually planned to go look at girls wan.

But then, I saw a lot of rare cars, so my attention is switched.

Hehe....

Saw some real nice car.

The best is Lamborghini Murcielago.

Others are Nissan GTR, a Lotus, Audi TT, Mitsubishi Lancer GT and GLS, and a lot more lo...

These are the best...

Hehe...

After that, went back to UNITEN.

Reached home, others sleep while i continue chatting.

Chat till around 3.30am.

Then slp.

ZZZZzzzzzzzz.........

Here are some random shots:

P/s: I really enjoyed yesterday outing!! So happy till no words to explain!!! Thanks a lot to those present!!!

First Outing with Foundies!!

Last Tuesday, we planned an outing with the foundations.

But then it is actually supposed to be Promo Group outing.

However, since our group is so small, we have to invite others to join us.

Let's see.

Who went?

I think got 13 ppl.

Uncle Tien, Ah Gang, Ah Kam, Kuan How, Mr. and Mrs. Ong, Jay Junior, four adorable foundation girls and one handsome foundation guy.

The other person that i din state here is me lo.

So, the stories goes as the following.

Since Uncle Tien asked us to wait for him at 8pm, we got prepared and waited for him.

I went to Amanah to pick up his 'baby', then head towards Ilmu to pick up the four girls.

Then Mr. and Mrs Ong reached in a little while.

Since we waited for kinda long ady, I called Ah Gang.

He said Uncle Tien not yet reached.

OK lo...

Have to wait...>.<

Then wait so long.

Then he reached.

We actually wanted to go eat steamboat wan.

But then it ended up going to TIT BAN TOFU.

We reached and started ordering.

It feels like family reunion lu.

Haha...

Very big family!!!

So, who is who?

Dunno...

I dun wanna say...

Guess ba...

After eating, wanna go home liao.

Then someone proposed to go Putrajaya.

B4 we know it, we r on our way to Putrajaya ady.

Then we tour around for a while.

Stopped at the bridge - 2 bridges actually.

Then head back home.

It's already 2am ady that time.

On our way back, the two foundation students in my car fell asleep.

They looks so cute!!

It's too bad i din bring my camera.

If not, sure post up ady.

Haha...

It's been long since i last seen someone fall asleep.

Okok...

Then we reached Uni and all of them went back.

After that we (Mr. and Mrs. Ong, Jay Junior and me) went to McD to study.

Study tll morning 6 am...

Then go back home slp.

That's all.

I really really wished to have another outing with the foundation students again...

Awaiting that day to arrive.........................................

I only have one picture.

Here it is....

Thinking...

I have been thinking a lot for the past few days....

Thinking on what should I do

On the matter that I have thought for so long

For as long as I remember

It is from the time I met her

Who is that 'her'?

I wont be mentioning the name now

Cause I am not sure what should I do now

I failed before

And I am not sure if I will fall again

I hope I wont

As I am now deeply

Engrossed by my feeling

Towards HER.

GoMobile 2009

GoMobile 2009 is back again!!
Have been waiting for it.
Went for it last year.
It's a real good experience especially to those mobile freaks out there.
Just go....
It's really fun!!

The Ugly Side

Last Friday, I discovered something really ugly in UNITEN.
Allan and I were walking by the lake beside BN when we smelt something really bad.
We tried to figure it out and what we got from it is really shocking.
There were dead fishes all over the lake.
Both of us were shocked!!
How could this happen in UNITEN?
I will let the pictures do the talking.

We walked around the lake for one whole day.
From noon till night.
Just to find the cause.
And the cause?
D' Tasek Cafe.
They released some kind of waste.
Maybe accidentally or purposely.
We never know.
Dun ask me the location.
Just go and take a look by urself.
UNITEN only have a few place like this only.

Love?

Love.
This is the four letter word that makes ppl happy and sad.
Sometimes, it makes ppl to be jealous too.
So, what do you think bout it?
From wat I have experienced, it brings joy with it.
But then it will leave sadness with you when it leaves you.
So, do you want to have it or not?
For me,
I dont know which is my decision.
I might just let it be....
That's my decision.

Sad....

I am really sad this few days...
Really sad...
Cause I saw something that reminds me of something that I have gone through before.
Should I stopped it before it get any worse?
Or should I just sit aside and see what will they do?
I am really in a depressed state.
Dunno how should I face this.
Really dunno how.
Too much thing to face in this sem.
Really depressed liao.
A lot of problems coming in.
Saw a lot of people's true faces ady.
Felt so sad bout it.
Maybe I shouldnt be thinking this much.
I should concentrate on my study more.
I guess a lot of ppl will agree with this.
So, I will just leave all those heart breaking incident aside.....
Only for a Moment....

Met Someone....

I met someone at the PKC Freshie Camp...
Someone that is my kind
But then, I dont know if I should go on
As I have asked myself for so many days,
Am I prepared for it?
But then, the answer is always "NO"
I am afraid that if I let her go,
I will never have the chance to meet her again.
Pls....
Someone pls teach me what should I do??

Gym

Yesterday, after class, Allan and I planned to go to gym cause it's kinda long ady since I ever workout.
So, we went back and prepared our drinks and towel.
Then around 3pm, we went to the gym.
Reached the gym, we warm up ourselves by running on the running machine(i think that's what its called)
Then we exercised our muscles using all the equipment thing.
But then the only time I sweat is when I am running.
During the muscle exercising, Allan was sweating but not me.
Maybe I didnt workout that much.
Hehe....
Then around 4.30pm, went back to apartment....
Kinda refreshed and can study properly.
Maybe will do more exercise in the future.....

Awful day....

Today went to class with a very spirited body....
But then came back with a very tired body and mind....
Today's class not that bad wan.
But then, my timetable is as follow....(see wat u all think)

10.00-12.00 = Class
12.00-14.00 = Break
14.00-16.00 = Class
16.00-17.00 = Break
17.00-23.00 = Class

I had my breakfast this morning at 9am. Then my lunch at 12.30pm. After that had my early dinner at 16.30pm. Till now only having my dinner. Now sitting here eating my dinner. Thanks to Alvin for tapauing for me. Thank you so much...
Now really tired lo...
For 14 weeks, have to go on like that every week...
Dunno can handle or not....
Hopefully can...
But then for now, i am spiritually down.....

Thank You!!!

Yesterday so happy...
I thought I will never had a chance to go out of UNITEN to have my dinner cause I didn't bring my car in this semester....
All thanks to our leng lui, Joanne Ong (I state it as Ong so that u wont mistaken it for Chua...hehehe....)....
Alvin came back yesterday afternoon and told us that someone going to fetch us out for dinner!!
I am so HAPPY!!!
Then we prepared to go out....
All of us thought that Calvin is in his room..
We knocked on his door, calling out his name....
But it turned out that he went out ady...
Haizzz......
So, we three get prepared and went out to wait for our leng lui....
Then, Joanne came and fetch us out to have our dinner.
On our way out, I came upon the thought of going back to my relative's house.
So, I asked if she can fetch me back or not...
She agreed!!
YEAH!!
So, after dinner, I went back to my room and start packing...
I was in a rush, so I miss a few stuff...
Pheh....
Then, she fetched me back to my aunt's place.
Really thank you so much, LENG LUI JOANNE ONG!!!
If it's not because of you, I wont be sitting here in my aunt's house typing this post!!!
Thank you!
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Why?

Why does it have to be this way?
Why am I so stupid to start it?
Why am I so careless in interpreting it?
Why can't everything be like before?
Why does this have to happen to me?
Why can't I just get over it?
Why do you have to treat me like this?
Why am I treated this way?
Why everything have to be in this way?
Why? Why? Why?

A2 paper for sale....

A2 paper for sale....
I suddenly got one whole bunch of it...
I cant used up all of it...
That's why planning to sell it...
Anyone interested?
Can find me and get it at a quite reasonable price.....
(Depending on ur relation with me....if close then can get cheap lo....hehe....jk jk)
Thanks.

Shortcut....

I just only found a shortcut to COE from Cendi.
Maybe most of u know ady.
But then i just found it this sem.
So slow.
For those dunno yet, here's some guide for u all.

this is the golf course (hope u all know where it is)

this is the water tank. (after the golf course then u will see this)


this is the water tank (i really dunno which is the real water tank)



this is a white building for the pump i think...


this is the track to be taken straight to BN (but pls bcareful-coz can fall into the lake wan)

Hope it helps....

Flower...

When I am at my home for the last three weeks, I spend some of my time planting flower.
Then before I come back to uni, some of them blossomed!!
So happy to see the plants that I took care of it so carefully blossomed!!
That feeling can't be explained....
Hehe...
Here's some of the picture of the flowers....

Forgotten the flower's name....

They say this is rose...but i dun think so...


I prefer this the most....


My favourite....

I am so happy cause there's result in this three weeks only...
Very happy to see them blossom!!
Wished to plant them here.....

Happy Birthday, ALVIN!!

Happy Birthday, Alvin!!
Just now we went for our dinner at UPTEN.
With Johnson's gang...
At there we saw the Digi Campus event...
Since it's quite a good plan, I switched to it.
After that, Alvin and Bryant played the Guitar game on a PS3!!
It's kinda fun...
Alvin played till dont wanna go take his dinner ady.
All of us waiting for him nia.
Then we had our dinner and Johnson they all started planning for Alvin's surprise.
Bryant took Alvin to play the guitar game again.
There they bought everything we need for the surprise.
After they finally finished their game, we walked to Tasik for a stroll.
Then Alvin says he wanna go to the toilet in the Resident Hotel.
A nice way to divert him away...
Haha..
So Alvin, Bryant and me went to the toilet.
After that, we went up to the highest floor which is level 6.
We can see the whole UNITEN from up there.
Then when we meet back with Johnson's gang, the attack start!!
I forgot who threw the eggs ady.
I just know that one egg was smashed at alvin's head while another at his back.
He was so shocked at it...
Then after that, comes the flour!!
The flour was thrown on all parts of his body.
From head to toe.
Haha...
Then suddenly, the flour attack which is supposed to be on Alvin only,
the attack landed on others too.
All were white in color except Calvin, Tay, Wei Jing and me.
Hahaha!!
Here's some of the picture taken....

Johnson and Alvin posing...

Alvin showing off his 'beautified' hair


Alvin's beautified hair with egg shells and flour


Alvin's back with the egg smashed

Johnson's face after being thrown with flour

That's all for the celebration...
Alvin, I hope that u enjoy it!!
Haha...
Hope it's a surprise!!

Last but not least.........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
ALVIN ONG XING JUI!!

Back to Uni...

Finally back to uni...
Now in degree ady.
Kinda happy when come back here.
But then this time staying in Cendi.
Which is not as nice as Amanah.
Haizz...
Wished to go back there..
Today have been a busy day..
Going here and there...
Morning go take bus...
Very long din take bus liao....
Today take bus...
Go class meet my other friend!!
Allan!!
So happy to be in the same class with u!!
Then went to classes...
Then go library go see our textbook price...
So darn EXPENSIVE!!
RM73...
Then go redo my ID...
My picture not that nice lo...
NVM...
Then go met He Qing to have our lunch...
After that went back to ITMS to register our new id....
Then went back home...
Dunno wat to do one whole evening...
A lot of things have happened since the time i entered foundation...
I have hurt a lot of ppl...
I am really really sorry....
To the people that I have hurt...
Either on purpose or accidentally....
Sorry.....
That's all for today.
Going to slp liao...

Volunteer...

These few days have been a very very busy day...
Not because of my work
But then its because of something that I enjoyed very much!!
Which is becoming a volunteer!!
But then this is not for charity wan...
Its for security...
Better known as "sukarelawan"...
I am a part of Sukarelawan Bukit Mertajam...
I am back to my work ady...
So long since I last work together with them...
So happy...
But then quite dangerous o...
Last night, we have to tailgate a motorcycle riden by two Malay guys...
We suspect them because they are behaving suspiciously...
Then they strike!!
However there is already more than ten sukarelawan ready to catch them!!
After they snatch a handbag from a lady
We gave chase on motorcycles and cars...
Around five motorcycles and two cars gave chase
Then we cornered them and tried to overpower them...
However, they whipped out two parang and tried to slash us...
We report it to the police through our walkie talkie and the police came...
After some persuasion, we managed to take them down...
That's a good but scary experience for me...
I have been a volunteer for so long
But then this is the first time I have ever encounter something like that...
Phew..
Everytime heard it through the walkie talkie only bout the chases...
But then this time I got involved!!
Nice experience though...
The following is the picture of my new walkie talkie!!
Happy!!! Finally!! My own walkie talkie!!


Everyone of us have their own code to be called...
Mine is C328...
Everyone called me that!!
Haha!!
Got a lot of other number la...
Hehe...
So happy joining back this team!!
That's all for today...
Gotta continue my work ady...
Huhu....

Updates?

Haizz...
No update for so long liao...
Sorry yea to those who wished to read my post...
But then I am now working...
Not really have the time to post blog...
Sorry...
Hope u understand...
Now gonna do my works...
Bye...
Till next post...

Outing in Penang...

Today went out with my ex-classmates..
They are my best friends ever...
Hehe...
There are other best friends..
But this two are the one that really understands me...
Hehe...
They are Symone and Sarah...
Thanks a lot, girls!!!
Today went to Pacific...
Then we three walked around it for a few rounds...
After that went to Mc D to have our lunch...
Then we went for arcade...
Really enjoyed it very very much!!!
Had a whale of time there!!
Played shooting, dancing and throwing balls at the screen!!
Haha...
But then hand pain lo now....
Really...
Hehe....

Home ady...

Reached home Saturday morning...
Hoped to enjoy this holiday...
But then, have to do a lot of stuff...
PKC stuff...
Pening habis lo...
Then some more got work...
But then that one I will surely enjoy wan!!
Haha!!
Cause I like it very much!!
Some more got nice salary!!
Hopefully can finish up everything in time!!

Not Thinking of It Anymore...

I have made an important decision today...
I am going to let go of YOU...
Yes...
I am now letting go of You...
Since you have found another person that can makes you much more happier
I will always respect your decision
Hopefully you will make a good decision
BUT...
I will always be at ur side taking care of you...
If there is anything I can help...
Just contact me by any means and I will be at your service...
I can only hope that you don forget me....
I wish you happy days ahead of you with that guy....

EMO...

OMG...
Just finished my finals today...
Went out to play oso...
Then just now dinner at UPTEN...
Talk until so late...
Alvin and Jojo like no paper ady wan...
So relaxed...
Tony at home studying...
I am now at COE Foodcourt with Alvin and Jojo...
They studying...
While I am sitting here dunno doing what...
I don't understand it...
So many happy and fun things happened today...
But suddenly, I felt EMO!!
Just dont know how this came to me...
Let's just see how will it be when my mum arrived from Penang tomorrow...
Gonna continue surfing the internet while dunno what to do....
(Cause they say wanna go till 5 am!!)
Since nth to do, accompany them lo...
But then dunno am I lampu kalimantang here or not....
Hehe....
Got to go...
Bye....

Finally...

All the wars have finally ended...
Really happy bout it...
Went out to watch movie...
Night At The Museum II
Very very nice!!
Then went to the Jigsaw Puzzle World
Played for so damn long...
Hehe...
Paiseh lo...
The stuff for kids wan but then we playing it for so long...
Haha...
Thx for the outing!!



P/s: Really enjoyed it and it helps me to stop thinking of something that can probably makes me sad again...

Fourth Day...

Today will be the last day for our war...
The other group have their last defense system against us...
They will be sending the last group which is led by MORF101...
Heard news saying that they are weak but we must not let down our guard...
Must get ready and face them...
After that, victory will be ours!!
Let's finish them off later!!

Third Day....

Today marks the third day of our ongoing war which started last Monday...
Right now polishing my weapons and reloading my ammo...
Last two wars seems to be victorious...
But today's war is the one determining our victory...
It's going to be a tough war when the other group is led by PHYF144..
No matter how..
This war can't be evaded and we have to face it somehow...
It depends on how to face it...
I choose to face it lightly and fight with all I got...
Let's get back to finish up our preparation for this war!!

开心了。。

我佷开心
不是因为我
昰因为她
她开心了
可是
我还是会在她身边
Caring for her
Till when the time stops
I will always put you in a place
Deep inside my heart
Remembering you
Forever
I LOVE YOU...

Second day...

Today is the second day of the ongoing war with FINALS..
Yesterday, we successfully overcome their two attacks..
One is led by ENGF103 while the other is MATF144..
The first attack is kinda ok..
Managed to weaken their defense and finish them off...
For the second group, we almost gave up but we still managed to finish them off...
Later, another group is coming...
Led by CHEF144...
It's not going to be easy oso...
So, gotta polish our weapons and fill up our ammunition too...
Later, let's finish them off in one clean sweep!!

First Day...

Today is the first day of our one week war...
Everything seems fine but we will never know till the results is out....
Hopefully will be able to get better result compared to last semester...
Now going to stuck my head into the chemistry book since I have just had my early dinner...
Dont know if will be hungry or not later....
Just now doing the paper time wanna sleep liao..
Haha...
Maybe going to slp early today...
Going to study....

Studying....

Currently, I am in admin building studying for my final...
But i dun really know if I am studying or not...
As you can see, I am now blogging rather than studying...
Hehehe....
I think I better continue studying liao....
Bye...

Why Oh Why?

Just now in the morning
I had the semangat to study for the rest of the day
As I have just received a type of encouragement from someone
I studied for one whole morning
Really focusing in it
But then just now went for lunch
Then suddenly something happened
It had a big impact
As I can't concentrate now
Really difficult
Dont know the reason
Haizzz...
Mood...
Pls come back to me ASAP!!!

消 氣

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古時有一個婦人，特別喜歡為一些瑣碎的小事生氣。她也知道自己這樣不好，便去求一位高僧為自己談禪說道，開闊心胸。

高僧聽了她的講述，一言不發地把她領到一座禪房中，落鎖而去。

婦人氣得跳腳大罵。罵了許久，高僧也不理會。婦人又開始哀求，高僧仍置若罔聞。婦人終于沈默了。高僧來到門 外，問她︰“你還生氣嗎？”

婦人說︰“我只為我自己生氣，我怎么會到這地方來受這份罪。”

“連自己都不原諒的人怎么能心如止水？”高僧拂袖而去。

過了一會兒，高僧又問她︰“還生氣嗎？”

“不生氣了。”婦人說。

“為什麼？”

“氣也沒有辦法呀。”

“你的氣並未消逝，還壓在心裡，爆發后將會更加劇烈。”高僧又離開了。

高僧第三次來到門前，婦人告訴他︰“我不生氣了，因為不值得氣。”

“還知道值不值得，可見心中還有衡量，還是有氣根。”高僧笑道。

當高僧的身影迎著夕陽立在門外時，婦人問高僧︰“大師，什麼是氣？”

高僧將手中的茶水傾洒于地。婦人視之良久，頓悟。叩謝而去。

何苦要氣？氣便是別人吐出而你卻接到口裡的那種東西，你吞下便會反胃，你不看他時，他便會消散了。

氣是用別人的過錯來懲罰自己的蠢行。

夕陽如金，皎月如銀，人生的福祉和快樂尚且享受不盡，那裡還有時間去氣呢？

P/S: I hope this post will help some of you in managing your anger...